the phone ring

today and
several times a day
an invite here
an invite tonight
the hot place to be
a sister
a birthday

gotta wash the hair
the car
work late
the laundry
how many excuses can there be
till the calls stop
one day

neediness has finally escaped
hollowness has been replaced
comfort in the own skin
alone
the only fear
is that it will someday
re-enter and reposess

and the crave of dolls that now enslave
the nightlife the parties
the phone ring

but today see the flee
far away
leave this life
and its frivolity, friends and flimsy
far behind

a new city
a new look
a new outlook

with books and sound
and passion old re-new

she's gone so far away
they say
never to come back
never did she want to stay
she hated it
they say
she hated who she beccame
they say
some if true
i say
but the truth is always gray

strong today
in knowing that their presence
somehwat annoying
somewhat a blessing
outgrown

grow old alone