wow i'm bitter and angry
the same
things change but some things stay the same

your body doesn't know what to do with the extra proteins
they say

and people are ignorant and trying to be cultured
all day

and is the music reason enough to stay
when i get obliterated 3 times a day

exacted and empty these girls without pay

wow i'm so cold and detached
i hate people
i hate everyone today and yesterday
and i'm fucking sad and exhausted again
today

still i swell

in the noisy semi-drunken expression
this rock 'n roll life, no expectation
of children or being a wife

and an agreement was made sort of it seemed
no there is nothing we can do for our parents
at this point
but be ourselves, and be happy and lead our lives

but still i swell
fear there is no real love in this well
cuz you don't love me anymore
and i've hurt you in a million different ways

and this whole boy girl thing
i can't go down it again
causing pain and feeling bad
obligated into loving
so that you will protect me and save me
after sharing
still be in love with me
when clearly you no longer do

all at once

we sat together in silence
all morning
me and the kid
no, not my kid thank god
but nonetheless suprising myself

today i am an open sore
and sitting quietly never felt better
i am waiting for you to reach inside and grab
all that is there
until there is no more

i love and hate all at once
am proud and scared all at once
and next will come little boy talkative
and we'll probably have to play a game

and my neighbors who think that i've got it made
with love all around
and i do, but know it's not true
no, it's not true

i've got this pain this deep deep pain
that won't be fed and won't go away
it's piercing into my gut
and rising

what's past

we loved it all of us in our own ways
but now everyone has parted ways
but i guess it's fate or destiny or some conglomeration of both that brought us together
and a sympathetic sadness or sentimental pity that keeps us attached
to the past

many years have passed but no time has passed
god the hours they passed so fast
and luckily or something like that
we've moved past

the judgement and the rules
the madness and the looks of disapproval
the fear oh the fear

leaving everyone only to be stuck with what is
their own truth
which for me was a really good thing

leather and tights

Leather and tights
there was no leather and tights last night
there was no smelling of cologne

leather and tights and long long nights
of keeping you by my side
i would if i could you know
all night

long days of saturdays
bedside bemoans me
talk below me
let's get this rock and roll show on the road already
i know you feel me

from here on out
i cannot take care anymore
and i sense danger and sadness and fight
of people feeling lonely and getting the short end of the night

oh well i've got this thing to do
and you know i wanna do this with you

In these early days

And her face just vanished disappeared, and I realize
in those early days it was a comfort
taking the edge off his alpha ways

In the early days, of barely a few months ago,
she wore a smile on her cherry red lips
she wore a smile as she crossed her ladylike legs
and I realize it was comfort

A different hairstyle every day she wore and it was a costume of sorts
I guess
for all of a sudden he bore, not complete
a whole in that red dress

I laughed and joked about the walking on the slut path
she laughed in good jest it seemed
we were happy
I wouldn't walk this with with with my other girlfriends I stuttered

but he was tearing a hole in her soul
she was just an image we all had concocted for even he
no longer owned the she we believed

my heart somedays it hurts because I guess I so wanted to believe
in she
but she was just a fleeting sight to be seen
a mere figment of our imagination

lady like femininity walking the streets red cherry
in these early days we go on, as one without she

comfort

drained and tired as the planets travel backwards
this left brained work can be a lot she says
zapped
luckily you power your right brain she says
relax
and all I want is a drink or a cheeseburger, french fries,

not thinking about powering the right brain
in fact only dreading dreading wanting my bedding
comfort comfort fried calamari