on being light and vague

there is no need to hurt people's feelings when you're feeling this cut-throat
like a dog in a dog eat dog world, since you're a huge opportunist rat anyway right? and up until now had to lie your way to where you are, being even more light and vague than imaginable. that was your youth. light and vague. more so than you're willing to now. people thought you were something else. someone else. maybe you even had yourself fooled. or you were just taking your time, in no hurry, wise and knowing that this what you needed to do at the time, where you needed to be, even though it left you so unfulfilled and angry. frustrated. but you took the steps you needed, the baby steps you needed. for you. i guess people didn't know. and they walked all over you thinking you weak, when you had a plan all along, a blueprint that would materialize in it's own time.

finally she says you realize your worth. finally you agree you realize your worth. finally in reality you know that that's not the case at all, but that now all your time is done, dues and debts paid, get out of jail after 3 turns on the dice. finally i guess it's time to live your life. free from the prison you yourself created, for a reason, I say. For a reason, you say.