The Mystery of 1000 Nights

I'm not who you think I am
I'm not who you think me to be
Be it pretty princess or ladylike

Next thing you know it's 8am
My lips are sealed
Not trying to hide the devil from your eyes

My skin changes colors
You can see things aren't the way they seem
A false dream you once had of me
A nightmare 
You wake up in the dark

Something's not right 
with me or my friends
Hiding in the shadows
Coming out after dark
In your peripheral you can make out our face

The smile behind our eyes hides 
the mystery of 1000 nights

Fake as it seems

I'm so tired of this lack of RnR
Rest and Relaxation
I'm so tired of the old ways of got to convince you I'm cool

Just because I dated women and got high far too much
Yea, that means I'm cool
When in fact
But you didn't instead you hated me
Banished me, vanished me, vanquished me, relinquishing your dreams
I'm tired even today after all these years the way you hated
still seeps in me, sits within me, rises to the surface when I see the exchanges
Your camaraderie fake as it seem

Trying to Derail Me

You live in fear, you wanna put the fear in me
you say they're gonna come
they're gonna take our dignity
I have to say it
It's just another infamy

Why don't you just do good work
and stop trying to derail me
I'm just trying to do good work
and you trying to put the fear of god in me
Are you doing God's work
in the name of blasphemy

I've got enough obstacles in my mentality
a mind which listens to much
has too much empathy
and all the energies
all trying to derail me

And if I seem distant it's self protection
killing the spiders in my brain
that have been living there too long
living there for too longe